February 24, 2017

Just Say It: 45 IS a Narcissist!

Lisbeth Zwerger, Tales from the Brothers Grimm

Two years have passed since posting regularly. Not writing has been a personal loss because writing tells me what I think, believe, know and don't know. My fellow bloggers most likely share those startling moments when you're typing along like a madwoman and suddenly realize you don't know what you thought you did when you first started explaining yourself to your self. That's when a woman admits she needs to look around--if she's wise enough to know she didn't know what she believed she knew; and honest enough to admit what she believed to be true, wasn't. The path to personal integrity means admitting what we don't want to know, and grounding ourselves in a reality we assumed only existed in the imagination of Margaret Atwood.

We write things down in order to realize what we're hoping for and what we fear. Writing is a self-awareness technique that's true, and it's a grounding skill. Think of writing as if it were a reality push-pin when anxiety distorts perceptions and we're prone to escape. If your mind is wandering to better times past or utopias future, stick a pin in the moment by scribbling a fact that's undeniable. Something like, "My feet are hot beds of coal right now" or, "It's raining." Feeling your body and seeing the sky brings you back to the present moment, the only place any of us has power to change a thing. Like taking off our shoes and grabbing an umbrella.

I have learned through recovery work that it's useful to pay attention to anxiety and write things down before lofting into a fool's paradise---an oft-visited place after discovering my best friend wasn't. The lousiest thing about that fact is: I didn't vote for the guy. I married him and that's an inconvenient truth that's incontestable. Here's another fact:

Trump IS our 45th President 

Now you can call him Trump or whatever you choose but he'll always be 45 to me. The "tru" in his name sounds like trust and the "ump" sounds like triumph neither of which is comforting or true, even if we feel better by telling ourselves so. This past year has been unsettling and the temptation to escape hovers like a beast. I've been browsing science fiction novels in bookstores and even worse: the New Age section, godhelpme you know things are serious when that happens! The nightly news is stuck on permanent mute and dinner conversations center on asinine History Channel episodes we aren't ashamed to watch. The creepiest thing has been catching myself scanning Netflix queues for romance movies dontjudgeme. When I am willing to sacrifice my dignity for ninety minutes of paradise, it's time to write reality into existence and ground myself in the now. And so I do because writing has kept me sane, especially when I did not want know what I needed to know. Now this next sentence is gonna disgust me to have to write, THO' I MUST, and it might make me pass out on my keyboard, however:

Trump IS our 45th President 

Just seeing that sentence scares the livin' daylights out of me and I'd rather pretend to be a princess in a fairy tale where tragedy ends well and happy is forever. Fantasy Land beckons when people are uncertain or damn near terrified to death. I haven't visited Fantasy Land for ages, not since the last stay when my incredible psychic skills turned a rat bazturd into Captain Moroni. By the way, any human being of any nationality, in any country on earth, can transform a turd into a potato, in case you didn't know--in case you hadn't caught your *prestidigitatious self in the act of self-deception. I've come to grips with the fact that any woman can see a prince in a frog which means I'm not that special after all. All she has to do to is ignore what she doesn't want to see, and believe anything confirming what she does. A woman can live in a world like that for a very long time so before you visit, word to the wise: make sure you have a proper visa for when you're ready to go home because:

Trump IS our 45th President

If you've been studying narcissism, you've probably made connections between your observations of 45 and *DSM criteria for a narcissistic personality. If you've read Dr. Simon's book In Sheep's Clothing, you've likely concluded that indeed, character matters, even when observable traits don't add up to a mental illness or a personality disorder. We recognize untrustworthy people by the unethical things they do, the Machiavellian choices they make, the lies they tell over and over for no reason other than the joy of the con.

Lisbeth Zwerger
In the fall of 2016, something unbelievable happened. A bullfrog became a King-in-mar-a-lago. Some of us felt our anxiety rising. We know what it means when frogs and kings are extremely self-centered, extremely entitled, extremely exploitative, and yikes vindictive. Narcissism is always in the extremes and no one can argue the King's behavior hasn't been extreme. At some point, and it may not be a yuuge deal when it happens, the narcissist's defenses will break down and when they do, God help us if he has the power to grind underlings beneath his shoe.

Why Talk About Narcissism?

When a woman has suffered the cold disdain of a man who promised to take care of her and love her ('cuz only he would do that; she's just that yucky), she never forgets. She warns everyone she can that it's wise to be vigilant when survival is tied to someone who can, on a whim, crush your life as if you were a disposable nobody. The truth is and some might call this a fact: I may be nobody to that somebody but I'm somebody to lots of nobodies and that's what matters most to me. As a consequence, many of us have spent hours and years of our lives, learning about narcissism. We've done this even after ending a relationship that broke our hearts. We continue learning, not to cast blame on people with narcissistic personalities, we continue learning to protect ourselves from further harm. We study to end the misery and we study because contrary to allegations, we care about the narcissist. We seek understanding in order to heal because we love peace more than revenge.

We study to keep the reality push-pin firmly in the present because we know the exquisite pain of losing ourselves in fantasy. One narcissistic relationship oughta be the limit though hardly anyone's that lucky and if they are, they won't know it. Most of us will be born to, exposed to, work with, marry, and/or elect more than one narcissist in our lifetime which is why it's relevant to identify and understand normal narcissism (Malkin) as well as pathological. There's a lot we can do to minimize subsequent misery but only if we admit that what we didn't want to see, was. What we don't want to see, is. That we didn't know someone's behavior was not within the bounds of normal and now we do.

Who then can forget being scolded, even by friends, for not realizing something was wrong before a crisis shattered our lives. Were we gluttons for punishment? Were we too lazy to seek answers? Did we want to be hurt? And so we learn. But even then, even after gaining a reasonable understanding of the narcissistic personality and accepting things we didn't want to know about human beings we're told:

You SHOULDN'T diagnose Other People

Do you feel shamed for having done something so egregious, so w-r-o-n-g as saying 45 is a narcissist? Something you shouldn't have done, wagging forefingers scold. Neighbors, too. Add family to the list if your relatives believe 45 is God's mouthpiece and you shouldn't criticize Him. People are absolutely "shoulding" all over themselves and they're shoulding all over me, shaming people for utilizing what we've learned and applying this knowledge to a man with enough power to control other people's lives, but not enough to control his own. A man with the will to destroy his enemies; i.e.: those who disagree. Some of us are frightened and justifiably so. We shout, "Check for rain!" because we have learned that nothin' nice comes from ignorance and nothin' good comes from self-deceit. There is no safety in denial my friends, not even when the multitudes are humming lyrics in biblical harmony.

Lisbeth Zwerger
I recently read an article that felt like a scolding and that's what triggered me to write. The psychologist criticized "amateurs" because people shouldn't diagnose other people. We should only diagnose someone if they're sitting in our clinic and even then we shouldn't share the diagnosis because privacy rights. We are free to diagnose our own narcissism though because anyone reading our opinion about someone else's narcissism, knows this to be an irrefutable way to out ourselves.

Question: Is narcissism a mental illness?
Answer: No.

Some psychologists are irritated that concerned citizens insist 45 has a mental illness because his behaviors exceed the normal parameters of common decency. It's important to remember however that narcissistic traits, even extreme narcissistic traits, do not a mental illness make. Even if every rat on this sinking ship agreed 100% that 45 was a narcissist, being a narcissist is not a mental illness. Acting like a brute is not a mental illness. You can be a jerk and a royal asshat and it's not a mental illness. You can leave your wife and cheat your boss and forget your kids and it's still not a mental illness. (some call it male privilege but that's another tangent dontflameme). The only degree of narcissism considered to be a mental illness is NPD, the Narcissistic Personality Disorder. Any degree of narcissism short of a NPD is not a mental illness.

Fact Alert: People who are close to the narcissist might develop a mental illness (ptsd, depression, anxiety, for example). It's important to know that while narcissism is not a mental illness, narcissists are frequently diagnosed with mental disorders "...such as depression and bipolar disorder, with consequent increases in risk of suicide, alcohol and substance abuse, and eating disorders...As these persons get older, mood disorders can worsen because of dissatisfaction with their personal and professional lives." (Dimaggio)

All of which goes to say students-of-narcissism can suggest without shame or hesitation that in our learned opinion, 45 is a narcissist and this does not imply he's mentally ill. And there's another reason why you can't diagnose someone with a NPD. Why not? Because you're not a clinician and you're not creating a plan requiring an accurate diagnosis for proper treatment and insurance billing. So for whatever it's worth: you aren't diagnosing other people. You're offering an opinion. You're putting your knowledge to work. You're observing behaviors and connecting your observations to what we know about the narcissistic personality. As Dr. Craig Malkin reiterates, "Being a narcissist is not a diagnosis. It never has been."

If you aren't a clinical psychologist and you don't have a pot worth suing to piss in, you're free to say whatever you believe about 45. You're free to say you think I'm a narcissist and it'll be your constitutional right to say so---even if you make me cry. (I'm joking about crying under the scrutiny of opinion and if a simple woman like myself can toughen up, so can 45). I don't think anyone needs to protect 45 by scolding people for questioning his behavior. If I were teaching Narcissism101, he'd be my premier role model. I'd ask my students to:
1) make a list of 45's behaviors that are identifiable as narcissistic traits;
2) check in with yourself. Do you feel as though your soul has been kidnapped and dropped in a hellhole of perpetual horror? If you're disoriented and the nightly news makes your knees buckle, please count your misery as additional criteria.
Here's a fact about my readers and myself: we don't just have opinions about narcissism, as shallow as opinions can be. We have informed opinions based on first person experiences ouch and extensive studies whew. What's the point of identifying and understanding the narcissistic personality if we shouldn't draw conclusions based on our observations and express realistic concerns for the wholedamnworld's welfare?

Resisting the Urge to Escape:

Staying in Present Time When Present Time Sucks

Ground yourself in reality, what is, not what you wish it to be. Apply what you've learned about narcissists by protecting yourself emotionally and financially. In other words: prepare for the worst and hope for the best. Take action. Focus on those who have power over your life. Do not blindly trust politicians nor expect magical transformations---the transformation you hoped would have happened to the narcissist, yet never did. You know what I'm talking about: Malignant Optimism. Magical Thinking. Fantasy Land. That fairy tale place where princesses meet frogs and divorce thirty years later.

Understand your reactions to narcissistic personalities. Make sure you aren't falling into self-destructive patterns because you're anxious and afraid. Avoid irrationality, like 45 encouraging you to take a leap of faith---wha'dya have to lose---insisting you can't trust anyone but him. Trust yourself! And remember that everyone prays for a rescuer when the fact of the matter is: you rescue yourself first and help others rescue themselves later and on and on true empowerment goes. When someone promises to save you and nobody can but him, well...alls I can say is that thousands of people heard that line and now they're studying narcissism. So don't be shy about sharing what you've learned and what you've observed because this is the way we build safe societies...one honest conversation at a time. We talk to each another. We speculate. We tell one another when someone's headed over a cliff and that includes being warned about ourselves.

Lisbeth Zwerger
If 45's authoritarian style is silencing for you, resist! If you're afraid to break the No Talk Rule, talk to your diary. Not Talking is a rule that should be broken. We can build healthy connections by sharing what we know about narcissism so don't isolate. Tell yourself, "This is what I see today" and write it down. Find a listening ear. Talk things over with people who can tolerate your gnarly opinions and accept the fact that you don't know what you hope to know in the future but you're willing to learn from your mistakes today. Don't scare your neighbors into building bomb shelters stockpiled with ammunition. There are better ways to stay grounded on top of your lawn, rather than hiding underneath it.


Resist the urge to deny, rationalize or excuse presidential abuses. Resist the temptation to diminish narcissism as irrelevant, pretending anything short of a NPD won't be caustic for democracy. It will be. When self-interest is rigidly ingrained, that's toxic narcissism and it's ruinous for partnerships, families, communities and countries.

Be Kind

If you sincerely want to resist 45's influence, persist in being kind. Be kind to the people you love; be kind to those you don't; be kind to yourself. It's not your fault people didn't know they were voting for a narcissist. And even if they did, they rationalized the potential for harm. We've had narcissistic leaders before, people tell themselves, why is 45 any different? Where shall we start my friends? How about discussing people's fear of saying anything bad about 45? Would that be a good place to start?


I believe we can create a healthier society now that we're talking about narcissism. Undoubtedly, some psychologists will resent laypeople grappling with psychological information. Undoubtedly, some armchair psychologists will use this information to discredit and harm people. Psychologists have, right? But you and I know that people (including ourselves) have judged-and-labeled one another in cruel and malicious ways long before libraries stocked copies of the DSM. Being told we shouldn't talk about narcissism will not stop the labeling, nor will it end the stigma of mental illness.

My preference for eliminating stigmas is broadening human understanding through open discussions. Silencing fosters attacks on one another's humanity through ignorant judgments and pejoratives, the lack of understanding.

I believe we're making a difference, you and me and everyone writing about narcissistic relationships and narcissistic traits and narcissistic personality disorders. Sure, it can seem as though every disgruntled person on the planet is diagnosing everyone else as a self-centered narcissist; this is part of the learning process. We are moving towards a more accurate knowledge of healthy-to-pathological narcissism and we'll get it right if we persist in wrangling with proper application, even when we're told we shouldn't. People are talking about narcissism now. Don't stop. Not even if you're "diagnosing" 45.

Hugs all,

"We have been socialized to respect fear more than our own needs for language and definition, and while we wait in silence for that final luxury of fearlessness, the weight of that silence will choke us.” ~Audrey Lorde


Prestidigitatious. This is not a word. 😉

DSM is an abbreviation for the Diagnostical and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders, first published in 1952.

Dimaggio, Giancarlo. Narcissistic Personality Disorder: Rethinking What We Know 

Lakoff, George.   Website and Blog

Malkin, Craig. Rethinking Narcissism on Amazon

Simon, George. In Sheep's Clothing on Amazon

Illustrations by the amazing Lisbeth Zwerger. 
"Lisbeth Zwerger is one of the most honored illustrators alive today. She has been recipient of virtually every recognition an illustrator can be given including the most prestigious of all, The Hans Christian Andersen Medal as well as special recognition at the Bologna Children's Book Fair. Her Noah's Ark, Little Red Cap and The Wizard of Oz were all selected by The New York Times as a "Best Illustrated Books of the Year."" ~Link


  1. Hello CZ, I really enjoyed this! As far as "diagnosing" narcissism, I tend to lean more toward the DSM-4 (whose description of narcissism I have studied a lot) instead of the DSM-5 (whose description of narcissism I have only studied a little). It seems to me that the DSM-4 tells you, "Here is a wolf. And you can tell that it is a wolf by the way it relates to sheep...especially young, tender and tasty sheep." The DSM-5 seemed to me to try to take us inside the head of the wolf, which is a much harder task when diagnosing a wolf. Number 45 is a wolf. His war against all people of color - especially Spanish-speaking immigrants - is proof of this, as well as his initial attempts to bully nonwhite nations such as China, Mexico and Iran. I think the only reason he has softened his his rhetoric lately toward these nations is because his advisors have warned him that his rhetoric was about to lead to [b]serious[/b] economic consequences. That leaves those of us in the U.S. whom Trump's regime deem to be safe objects to use as toilet bowls into whom he and his can puke their unresolved hostility. Our task is to show him and his that there are economic and political consequences for this also, and to apply those consequences by nonviolent means until either his stupidity breaks or his regime breaks. Where I live, a lot of us are talking together about how to do just that.

    1. I am so happy that you enjoyed reading this very long-form tangent. My intention was to lighten things up, despite the seriousness of the topic. So I hope you laughed or smiled at least a time or two!

      I wrote back and forth to Dr. Craig Malkin for awhile (he's also accessible on Twitter) because his "professional" approach to narcissism replicated my "amateur" understanding. You may want to read his book titled, Rethinking Narcissism for a more complete understanding of trait narcissism. This is how the DSM-5 has expanded our understanding of normal-to-pathological narcissism. They've added "Dimensional Narcissism" to the DSM while keeping pathological narcissism as a categorical classification (the NPD). I am one of the amateurs who believed this to be a more appropriate way to think about narcissism because of the "recovery movement" reflecting Heinz Kohut's self-psychology theory which allows for movement and self-growth.

      The people who were learning about narcissism along with me in 2002, seemed to align with either Kohut or Otto Kernberg. Perhaps the DSM-IV reflected Kernberg's theories about narcissism as a pathological state (NPD). We'd get in these ridiculous arguments about narcissists being able to "change" or "heal" and some sided with Kernberg and others with Kohut and it the division depended on just how destructive the narcissistic relationship had been (or was).

      I appreciate anyone's input or experience with current classification of the NPD and how we've shifted our understanding to now include normal, even healthy narcissism.

      In agreement with what you've written, "wolf's in sheep's clothing" might sound extreme to people if their experiences with "a narcissist" were mild-to-irritating. For anyone whose life has been turned upside-down because of a vindictive, spiteful, raging, or suicidal narcissist, talking about "healthy narcissism" would be infuriating. One cannot underestimate the terrible things pathological narcissists are able to justify. It is important to point out the distinctions between normal narcissists vs. pathological narcissists and I think n-communities are becoming more and more amenable to incorporating healthy narcissism into their discussions.

      In no way ever would I dismiss the tragedy of a NPD which can develop overtime, even flourishing at midlife. I believe we have, as a society, minimized the seriousness of the midlife crises, for example. This is how we reward narcissistic people by rationalizing their behavior as normal when it's not. These folks are in serious trouble. Kinda like 45, don't you think? He is in way in over his head without the emotional intelligence (conscience) to guide his decisions. Well, people wanted a CEO to run the nation and that's what they got. All head and no heart if you get what I mean. As a society, we have done this---we have elected role models reverence wealth as our God. It's should be no surprise that 45 was elevated to a king with "meritocracy" as a guiding principle.

      we can speculate as to whether or not 45 has a NPD in which case he'd be diagnosed with a mental illness. We shall see as time goes on. Pathological narcissism at his age, will take him down and his life story won't be a triumph---it will be a tragedy.

      p.s. This is my amateur understanding of psychological distinctions between Kernberg and Kohut so feel free to inform, disagree, add links, educate me! I'm not fickle but facts will change my mind. ha!


  2. Hello CZ,
    You have motivated me to try to dive more into the DSM-5 portrait of narcissism. I think I'd be more emotionally amenable to looking at narcissism as a continuum had I not encountered a few wolves in my life. Maybe I need to work on looking at this more objectively. While I am not a Calvinist ;), I do believe that people can make a series of choices that eventually puts them in a place beyond hope of recovery. I think that describes No. 45 and his fellow travelers.

    I agree with you that they are in over their heads - and that this tendency is being amplified as time passes and those who are willing to accept inconvenient realities bail out of his administration. (A couple of weeks ago, his pick for a replacement national security advisor turned down the job. This last week he lost his CIA director.) The danger is that he will construct an echo chamber of sycophants who will enable his willful blindness to inconvenient facts. After that, it's only a matter of time...kind of like playing on a freeway while wearing a blindfold.

    1. I will create a post for the forum describing distinctions between the DSM-IV and DSM-5. I saw a comparison chart on the web somewhere maybe last year? Lemme pull something together. I am not as clear about distinctions as I probably should be, although it's not relevant since I am not a clinical psychologist. But what I did not ever want to do and don't want to do now is to lead people astray because of my ignorance so you've encouraged me to dig a little deeper myself!

      Clarissa Pinkola Estes wrote a beautiful essay that was included in a book about 45: "A Clear and Present Danger: Narcissism In The Era of President Trump". https://www.trumpnarcissism.com/

      She begins her essay by writing, "Do not lose heart; we were made for these times." This is a direct PDF download if you're interested:

      Reading her words gave me hope that the work so many of us have done in understanding the narcissistic personality, may have a purpose even greater than realized. Sure, most of us started this difficult task because we were sick-and-tired of being sick-and-tired but now? Now we have something to offer. I hope to write several more "shorter" (ha!) articles about surviving the N-persoNality and that includes narcissistic leaders.

      You have offered so much to your readers (including myself) about global politics and the decompensation of narcissistic leaders and individuals. You always give me something to think about and I appreciate your many contributions to this great work!


  3. Narcissists are potential dictators, beginning at home.There are no limits in their head to their entitlement

    1. That is right, anonymous. People are always surprised when narcissists do the unexpected. Even if we haven't established Set Rules in Writing, people know the rules intuitively and restrain themselves because it wouldn't be 'right'. Narcissists seem to have a hard time staying within the limits of common decency so WE must set rules to protect society from their entitlement and exploitation.

      And also, narcissists have serious empathy deficits which they can 'cut off' when they need to justify their own behavior. They stop empathizing with people and insist that whatever they're doing is for the people's own good. I.E.: "I know this hurts and it isn't fair, but it's for your own good!"

      Never has it been more apparent that explicit rules and enforced laws are essential to preserving democracy. The problem is that people have assumed leaders wouldn't need to be told they can't do this-or-that; we assume anyone rising to the top of leadership would naturally put country above self. We assumed they wouldn't need rules limiting self-aggrandizement and monetary gains.


    2. Antagonistic : another person can never be a friend in his eyes, let alone against a common enemy.
      Totally different world view

  4. CZ! Hello my friend! I enjoyed this post. Thank you. You remain my soul sister across the ocean! (A, "very, very large body of water.") (wink, and sigh...).

    I needed respite from our current state of affairs and the reality that our country has a severe narcissist as a leader. Today our government shut down. I knew this was coming and I knew it from a deeply ingrained memory of what a narcissist with power can and will do.

    I can't comment on the entirety of your post right now, but wanted to say that I am delighted to see you address the part of this experience; this reality, that makes me fear expressing my views or feelings, and the ensuing isolation.

    I wondered how many others are also in fear.

    We had 10 inches of snow this week. Such a cleansing. Maybe that's why my brain finally led me here!


    1. Oh My My My!!!!!! How wonderful to hear from you, Dogkisses. I check the blog list every now and then (I'm not as active online as I used to be) and think about our lovely conversations and the struggles we've both faced in our lives. And then I see butterflied and birds and sweet doggies. You will always be my soul sister.

      I need a respite, too. 45's reign of pathological narcissism and undeniable sociopathy has terrorized myself and my family. Lots of old feelings arise and bad habits strive to take charge once again. It's a daily challenge thinking positively about life and keeping my focus on myself, on my family, on the things that really matter. I wonder if we needed someone like 45 to bring our national narcissism into view so we can examine where we have gone wrong as a culture. I mean seriously? This is the man we see as a role model for our kids??!!

      I will be writing again soon because it helps me cope with my unspoken fears.

      I'm so glad you stopped by! I hope things are going well for you.


  5. Narcissistic Personality Disorder is of course a mental illness. If being implacably delusional about one's perfection, unique specialness, right to primary entitlement, assumption of ascendant knowledge based on no information but only an insular self-sense is not a mental illness, then nothing is. Try -- https://pessimisticshrink.blogspot.com/2014/03/ocean-and-boat.html.

  6. https://undercovernarcissist.blogspot.com/


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